fallen!
erm..hols i did nth but watch tv, slp, watch tv, slp, go town n stone... damn sian, today first day of term 2 is more sian den ever...i think i have backslided...also dunno y..
it's just a feeling..
like losing touch from God,
feel no connection when i call to Him...
feel exhausted n tired...
i stop attending churches too~
dammit~
i started to become more agitated n fed up easily...
i started to lose faith..
n i'm afraid to lose tt faith,
i dun wan to..but i juz dun bother~~
knowing it's the act of Satan, it's strange y i dun bother w it..
i guess i just let things be...
have a feeling tt God is not w me anymore..
stupid n childish i noe, but i just feel it tt way.
n i'm enjoying this betrayal to God, enjoying every moments of the Devil's commands..
am i sick?
if not, y am i enjoying the things tt are forbidden?
"worship Him, love Him n Serve Him..den the door to heaven will be open for you" this phrase sounds sickening to me all of the sudden...it seems like ppl become christian to guarantee a place up above, it's like ppl onli become holy to avoid gg to hell...it sounds kia su to me though..
oh man, i think i'm sick...
posted by looneymouse @ 10:34 AM
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