I dreamt of heaven yesterday...in another world...

Big Steps

2007-12-17T14:43:00.000+08:00

I finally completed my course! The money spent is definitely worth while.
Today I shall declare myself as a professional SYSTEM TRADER...haha

Now the next big step is to create my own system and work according to the system...It's very risky but I do like the challenges and the analysing of the various trends and data.

I gain FINANCIAL INDEPENDENCE!!!!!!! I love it man...

trading...

2007-11-04T16:23:00.001+08:00

Have started on my so-called 'trading' career since 26 Oct. I realised that the trading world is full of mysteries and unpredictable changes.

It's not exactly gambling once you have studied and analyse the company that you are willing to invest your bread and butter in.

All thanks to Capitaland and Yangzijiang, I'm able to gain a little profit from there. But I did run with a loss in Yanlord, which costs me 170 big bucks!

From these, I learnt that accurate market analysis, correct execution, emotional control, discipline, consistency, and good money management are some of the skills that are required to trade successfully.

It's really no money no talk show, without forking out 20K, I can really dream on being a full-time trader. It's really a psychological game that teaches me not to take losses personally.

Monday is the day for me, come on, PISAPac! You can do it! Give me a 0.39!!!!!!!!

Slow Fade

2007-11-04T11:06:00.000+08:00

Be careful little eyes what you see
It's the second glance that ties your hands as darkness pulls the strings
Be careful little feet where you go
For it's the little feet behind you that are sure to follow

It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day

It's a slow fade, it's a slow fade
Be careful little ears what you hear
When flattery leads to compromise, the end is always near
Be careful little lips what you say
For empty words and promises lead broken hearts astray

The journey from your mind to your hands
Is shorter than you're thinking
Be careful if you think you stand
You just might be sinking

It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
Daddies never crumble in a day
Families never crumble in a day

Oh be careful little eyes what see
Oh be careful little eyes what you see
For the Father up above is looking down in love
Oh be careful little eyes what you see

Human!

2007-10-28T10:30:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I really wonder what is beneath a person? Been working in SP for about 3 months already and I have seen all kinds of people.

Nice ones, fake ones and even the bo chay ones...what is white and what is black? No one knows, even my colleague, who is younger than me by a year, feels the same. He don't even know who to trust now.

Work can really cause conflicts between people, even to those who seem to be nice on the outside but rotten on the inside.

Maybe it's time when we should put work aside and reflect on our own actions and ways...

Time will prove it

2007-09-21T16:31:00.000+08:00

James leaving for SMIT next wk. I dun like it but can't do anything besides giving him my best regards.

Don't give up, keep going and we will meet again one day.

Will miss him though...

man nature

2007-09-21T16:27:00.000+08:00

Now events are repeating themselves again!

This time, with him close by side, I'll going to guide and lead him to the right way.

I'm not going to let the incident happen the second time. God has given me second chance to fulfill my duties so I'm never ever going to give up!

itp..

2007-04-30T14:58:00.000+08:00

one month has passed...time flew past so fast till i am not even aware of it. well, currently having my itp in sch, with James doing video production work..wow James is soo freaking stress-out...OMG, i hope i can really help him with the graduation work.

i really love this job of mine, though it can be so bz at times but i simply love it...the people here are so nice! i dun mind working even for free manz...i learnt quite a lot from James..He taught me softwares like adobe after effects, 3D max etc, i also learnt how to operate the panasonic camera from mike..everything is so coolz.....wish 2 mths n 3 wks go slowly...

last sat went to YAG chalet, it was meaningful to fellowship with them, play 'bored' games when we are bored, play frisbee, singing karaoke like nobody business..bbq the nite away...wah..seriously, one day is not enough! i wan more!! learnt how to play a new game called, 'Taboo' (nv heard of it before in my entire life though).. the bonding is here...bonding with them thru God...feel so blessed..thanks guys !!!!!!!!

gg for a movie session (spidy 3) on fri with pastor and my fellow church mates...this is the first time we watch movie together..can't wait for friday to come.

easter concert!

2007-04-02T13:46:00.000+08:00

i can't wait for easter to come, hah this will be my first easter concert in church n i'm really lookng forward to it..hee

I'm be performing with other church mates in a musical concert, we are supposed to act as commoners but i feel the costumes tt we r wearing are too modernised..

anyway, i must not forget the purpose of performing, the purpose of the concert.. *smilez*..

this time, being consistent is the key to having great faith, great prayer life..

i learnt smgt, no prayer equals no faith...
how wonderful is it to maintain tt great wondrous relationship...

today is the first day of my attachment, feel excited all over again, onli this time, i feel another strength within mi, the strength n hands of my Father.. *wink*

bored...yawn

2007-03-15T13:24:00.000+08:00

here i am, with Sarita n her blue jacket while i'm in my yellow...sitting in front of comp, rotting like nobody 's business...waiting for lunch time to pass..n continue with our stoning jobs...

argh..having my itp next month, cross my fingers, this time i'm gg to give my all... may god bless mi..haha

zzzzzzzzzz.........

fallen angels

2007-02-13T16:46:00.000+08:00

i feel so blessed...

the feeling of being in touched with the Lord...

wonder whether i shld get baptised this easter...maybe i shall wait till christmas...hah

anyway, currently working w sarita, my dearest ger! enjoy it while it lasts (someone gg UK soon sob!)

2007-02-06T14:57:00.000+08:00

"Not everyone who says to Me, 'Lord, Lord,' shall enter the kingdom of heaven... Many will say to Me in that day, 'Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in Your name, cast out demons in Your name, and done many wonders in Your name?'"
Matthew 7:21, 22

first day in PCF!

2007-01-03T15:25:00.000+08:00

well well, if u think tt it's an easy job looking after little children, u r soo soo wrong..

haha four hrs into the job, i have a terrible backache *ouch* ahha...
but i simply love those kids..even the noti ones...adorable to pat them to nap, feed them etc...i feel like a nanny now..haha

i am beginning to find myself all over again..

praise the lord!

in gd hands...

2007-01-03T15:22:00.000+08:00

i felt reborned.

first breakthrough...can really feel the difference in my life..

thank you Lord... :)

depress...

2006-12-10T11:54:00.000+08:00

I dunno what to say..
i dunno what to do...
i dunno what i want...
i dunno...

i am scared...paranoid...depress...i feel useless...i am incapable...

i am scared that i might break down in front of them...screaming tt i did my best...i really do..what else do they want from me? are they happy tt they are making my life miserable? i feel humiliated....i feel tt everything i do is wrong...i feel tt they are enjoying the process of making me feel like a fool...

i am so helpless..i can't take it any longer..

i just wan to stop all these nonsense..SHIT YOU, DAMN YOU, GO TO HELL!~

growing up...

2006-12-06T15:38:00.000+08:00

we are being forced o grow up..yeah tt's so rite..

we are forced to be an individual and start taking responsibilities..we can no longer hide behind our lecturers, classmates, grp members' backs..tt's what internship truely means..

how come i have this feeling tt internship has made me realised how capable or useless we are...indeed, the courses we learnt in sch can help us at work but they also have negative effects- like not being flexible, everything muz have format...it really makes us feel like BOOKWORMS, TEXTBOOKS based people...everything is very very very extremely different..

i really wonder how my other classmates feel? It is forcing me to grow up-in a very cruel way...

can't blame them ya, as this is the real working world...

sometimes being hard-working, having good conduct is just not enough...

It is truely the quality, not quantity, isn't tt sad?

wondering...

2006-12-02T13:30:00.000+08:00

i have seen people who fall away from the Lord so many times..they have great faith, but suddenly just disappear away from the Lord. They know that it's wrong but they just continue to enjoy the feeling of despair.

Y is it that humans are so fickle-minded? i simply dun understand...wat i want may not be wat i will get, how i feel may not be wat i should feel...

We are here to learn abt God's ways, but y sometimes i realli feel like i am not learning anything..

Am i realli following His ways and purpose? or am i following my own wish? how to know whether it is my own laziness n thinking of doing things?

I sin. i bitch, nag, grumble and curse...the saddest thing is, i dun realli care whether it's rite or wrong.. i do wat i desire n wat makes me happy...

in the end, it's just me, me n I...

my current life...

2006-11-27T12:11:00.000+08:00

i just cut my fringe...i realised that whenever i am down or stress, i will surely do something to my poor hair.

slant cut, tt's wat i told my hairdresser..i look like a little ger ger again! who cares anyway, i LIKE it!!!!!!!!!

it's the starting of the fourth wk today! wonder how can survive till the last day of internship..up to now, i finally have the urge to be as bz as possible. i wanna feel impt, i wanna keep myself bz, i wanna do everything..

but the reality is not always wat u thirst for. i am slacking too much! suddenly, my goal in life becomes so blur..i no longer want to be in the working world, realised how lucky it is to be a student.

now, i can only bear with everything, waking up with a new hope that one day, everything will be fine, that i will feel bliss in whatever work i do. AARG!!

two words to define working life:

NO LIFE!

numb...

2006-11-21T12:29:00.000+08:00

i'm tired! argh!

i wanna cast everything away n just slp slp slp!!!
hee i slept 10 hrs yest! shiok!

went to mimi's hse to eat his bday cake!!!! yumy~

i'm waiting for all this shit to end!!! :x

dead...

2006-11-12T11:28:00.000+08:00

i just wish this weekend will last longer..there are so many things that i wanna do but there seem to be not enough time for all..argh~ i nid a LIFE!!!!!!!

what's the use of a blog when u cant even lament on anything?!? shucks man!

mon is coming soon (TML)....i cant even enjoy my sun wo having to do wat i'm needed to do (guess u noe what i mean)......

erm..i truly, realli MISS SCH!!!!!!!!! weird, got this sudden feeling tt i am OLD...I FEEL OLD! ARGH i hate it, hate it , hate it!!!!!

cheers to all sch-sickers!!!!!

first week!

2006-11-10T12:54:00.000+08:00

oh my god! it's fri today! ARGH!! weekend is here!

i think every dmc student is superduper happy after today! we have battled and survived the first week!

holy god, thank you! *kneel down* plus *kissing cross*

my first week is just so great...meet suppliers, meet naggy clients, blablabla..

guess what, i saw wilson yest at millennium walk! i'm at starbucks cafe, discussing proposal with client when i saw wilson walked past me...
he saw me first and i am so damn happi to finally c my classmate so i waved vigorously at him..he also look stunned and shocked to c me there. Thereafter i realised that he has an event at MW during the wkend so he went down to discuss on the venue...what a coincidence man!

wow, i begun to love my fellow colleagues...what a coolz n funky bunch of jokers...hahaha they are young indeed! we crap, joke, tease w one another..there are so much fun!~~

oh i'm blogging during office hrs..muz go look for a person who can create perspective drawings now.. enjoy the wkend while it lasts...

i miss sch!!!

phone

2006-11-02T15:27:00.000+08:00

i am currently looking for a phone which has no contract....

argh.........i wan motorola L6...slim n nice~~

internship~

2006-10-26T12:04:00.000+08:00

After knowing where i am posted to for my ITP, i feel excited, yet an overwhelming of sadness overcome me.

i should be happy abt my posting, my dream place, gd pay, fav liaison officer, gd working time....

hai, but i guess i shall miss my dearest classmates....no more sch for us soon....onli endless work till we drop!!!!

So SCHOOL-SICK n CLASSMATES-SICK leh...

jia you ba ppl, though we are in different working areas but our minds are in one similar place..let's work hard together ya!

lost...

2006-10-22T13:54:00.000+08:00

i'm lost...mon got nct presentation, haven learn my script...n we are the first grp!!! great huh...

wed muz hand up portfolio! argh, anyone noes how to do cover page?!?!? lots of doubts on my mind...n guess what, i'm slacking now...listening to radio, eating my curry chicken lunch! yummy!

haiz my dear went to Malaysia for short vacation yest..will onli come back on wed..sian..hee kinda miss him leh...no phone calls for me, no msg from him....

sad leh, he msg me when he is at the terminal but i onli saw the msg in the afternoon..stupee me, why did i leave my hp at home when i'm out! arg..din msg him back, too late le ah...

want him to be back soon..NOW!!..er xin i noe, but i realli feel lost leh...haiz

today is feifei's 21st bday! haPPI bDAY FEI!!! when are we exchanging vcds back ah? haha hope tt guy is enjoying himself today..

tired la, no strength le...now gg to slp after lunch...ZZzzz doze away my lovesickness!

:(

yummi yummi!

2006-10-15T14:53:00.000+08:00

meet sar, yus, shawn n wq yest for dinner at taka...

wq was late, no nid to say..haha after walking up n down in taka, we have decided to eat in an indonesian restaurant.. the atmosphere is rite, not too many ppl but the waitresses are weird, kept shooting us with strange looks....haha i think we bother them too much with "excuse me, can i have more ice water/rice!!??"

the food is spicy like hell loh, kept drinking ice-water, which irony contains more ice than the fluid..

we ordered fish, chicken, sotong, kangkong, n little prawnies......wah lau, the prawns are soooo freaking small la!!!!!! the plate is so tiny too!!! n it costs 9 plus i think.... ate our hearts out....haha the funni thing me n shawn kept asking for more rice....wth we ordered 3 times for additional rice k...i think the food is just too freaky hot...but it feels so shiok la....

after that we went swensen for icecream treat.. five of us ordered for a regular earthquake...n guess what, we spent such a long time choosing the flavours n waiting for it to come, but ended up finishing the icecream within five minuteS!!!

omg, the guys are freak out by the way we gals ate the icecream, we just swallow everything down, hands are all over the place, digging for more icecream....

i sure had an enjoyable dinner~~~ full stomach~~~~ yummi yummi!!!!!!!!

ice-skating~~~

2006-10-15T12:16:00.001+08:00

i miss skating~

very happi to hear yy say she wanna skate soon....i wannnn.....i'm suffering from miss-skating illness...

sian....when r we gg?!?!?

Zzzzzz

2006-10-12T11:58:00.000+08:00

freaking tired today. eyes getting smaller, though my eyes are already small..

my feet hurts from wearing the court shoes..now it seems that it hurts each step i take..ouch!!!

i wanna watch *gong*!!!! anybody got vcd can lend me..

i can onli watch 3 episodes per wk as my guitar n theory time clash with the show....

hai, i wanna slp.................

pissed~~

2006-10-10T12:15:00.000+08:00

dunno wtf is wrong w me today...

everything is all over the place...

wake up irritated..

miss the stupee damn train..

malu myself by forgetting to tap my pass when i board the bus

stupee bus driver has to come out n ask me to tap..

wah lao, i'm realli in a bad mood today..........

now in sch when i'm onli supposed to meet sar n quan at 1am...

freaking nuts! even forgotten tt i haven eaten my lunch....

damnit man....argh...
DUN STEP ON MY FUCKING TAIL!!!!

kai's bday~

2006-10-09T09:14:00.000+08:00

just attended kai's bday on sat!~! fun, fun n loads and loads of fun! :)

just wonder how to post photos in my blog...i'm a computer trash~~

someone help!!!!!!!

stuff..

2006-10-05T10:59:00.000+08:00

wow...i'm so happy for the next few wks..

firstly, i'm gg to sing in the choir for sharon's wedding!!! wah, i'm really very very happy tt she's getting married and actu so far, i dun have any frens who get marry yet..she's the first..hope she has a happy love life with steven!!

secondly, i'm also gg to participate in the choir for christmas!!! feel so blessed...

this sat is kai's 21st bday...gg for a bbq with our ex-classmates in sec sch...it's been a long time since i met up with jieying...so excited to c what she's been doing...really looking forward to sat when i can meet my ex-classmates n practise songs for sharon's wedding!!!

coolzzzzzzzzz

money matters..

2006-09-27T13:28:00.000+08:00

i feel broke in wk cos i'm buying new guitar books n theory's exam papers..which cost up to 30 over bucks

nid to pay for sch fees too, which is due nxt wk..

argh...money pls appear before me~~~

*magic* i nid a miracle...

snow snow~~~

2006-09-26T18:03:00.000+08:00

just went snow city with sar as she wanna check out the cold weather when she goes overseas to study...

fun n fun n fun!!!

the thing that bothers me is we muz always climb the long long stairs to get to the top of the slope whereas the person-in-charge can take the escalator up...
*not fair* leh..so irritated by the tiring climbing of stairs..

but well, we had fun, bombing each other with snow n did *stunts* on our journey down the icy slope...

hope to go ice-skating nxt wk though..as i really miss it~

wow wow...

2006-09-11T14:12:00.000+08:00

hee guess wat is the result?

din make it...but saw a cute cute muscular guy in the midst of judges...aww!

stupee woman~ she's the onli female judge n she was the one who press the red button wor...the other 3 guys still *admiring* my song wor...esp. the cute cute guy who smiles at me...

wow...look at him thru out my song..haha maybe i got too distracted?!?!?

i think he is in his late twenties...haha

i still cannot forget tt woman who smirk at me when i sing...wah i hate her!!!!

nonetheless, i made some contestant friends who *click* with me when i waited for my turn in the audition waiting area...

one more thing, sar, thanks for accompanying me thruout the nite..n i wun forget times we had when i am *below* ur bed!!!

nearly *freeze* to death but i enjoy covering my whole body with the mat.. THANKS SAR!!!! :) *muacks*

gg sch soon..also dunno for wat...according to sar, ms claire wans us to go there for some photoshoot thingy..*diao*

joining superstar has become a gd experience for me...haha at least i wun ever regret not joining in my entire life!!!

nervous...

2006-09-07T17:45:00.000+08:00

oh my god!

tml i'll be queing overnite le...

feel so sian yet nervous sia...

muz drink more herbal tea...muz not eat chilli...

argh!!!
stress sia...

sarita! r u ready to join me in the nite? haha

just bought uno cards to keep me n sar awake throughout the nite...

god bless~~~

sian~

2006-09-04T14:08:00.000+08:00

after going to tpy hdb hub to c the male's project superstar, i'm truely amazed by the number of ppl who turned up...6000 over ok, no joke~

got *stunned* when i saw the long long queue...wow..
think tt sky damn powerful to withstand the heat for more than 9 hrs.. *applause*
i dun think i can stand under the hot sun for so long wor..

it's the female's turn this weekend...haiz..

i'm gg to queue overnight..i'm juzt plain kiasu or simply hate the sun~

one more thing, i can't tahan waiting for so many hrs...will get impatient soon so this competition also tests my willpower n determination..

jiayou ba~ haiz

my cheese!!

2006-08-28T14:54:00.000+08:00

dear mimi!!!

HAPPY 6TH YEARS ANNIVERSARY!!!

let us be guided nearer nearer to the Lord...
let us grow stronger together in the presence of the Lord...

let us move on to build a wonderful life ahead of us...

6 yrs is not easy to come by...
i wish for a many many 6 yrs with u together!

love u lots...may we follow God's plan n be guided in Bethany!

thank the Lord for giving me such a precious gift.. (you)

Thanks dear!

most imptly, Thank God~ :)

busy busy weekends

2006-08-25T11:27:00.000+08:00

this coming 3 wkends i'll be sooo bz...

first, i get to watch movie w sar n yus tml..great cos it's been long since i watched a movie..can finally chill out after a long week of work..

second, nxt sat is my beloved jc fren, serlin's bday party so i get to meet up with my dear jc pals after so long..haha dunno wat to buy for her yet though...

the third wk is my final countdown wait for the audition for proj superstar...i muz practise n make sure that i dun sound like a frog on tt day...ahh haven chosen my songs yet...!!!! n i noe tt it's gonna be a long wait there...*sob*

omg, busi busi busi...

boredom~

2006-08-23T14:20:00.000+08:00

Time now: 2.15pm
Place: Office
Things to complete: None
What am i doing now: Rotting
Time to knock off: 6pm
Hours left to stone: Abt 4 hrs
Situation: BRAIN DEAD

Not tt i wan to complain tt there's nth to do. but i'm really begin to feel bored. Sarita is reading her book while i'm looking blankly at the comp screen. *sign*

this hols is gg to be dull...

work till drop

2006-08-22T16:01:00.000+08:00

ever wonder wat's it is like to have a boss who starts pointing fingers to her employees once a prob arises?

even if it's her own fault?

how i dislike such management. when prob arises, the first thing to do is to work together to solve the prob.

many a times, i feel tt sar n i are felling deep into a pit full of traps tt we do not even aware of. the feeling is very very bad..it feels tt we are in danger any moment.

i have worked for other companies but none are like tis..

but it's true tt the work load is very slack but there are times when i feel overloaded with tons n tons of unfinished work.

i truely hope me n sar will be able to pass thru this wk peacefully..

amen.

working life

2006-08-18T13:59:00.000+08:00

i declared that normal 9 to 6 job is not suitable for me.

i hate admin work..ahh

not tt it's not gd but it is real boring...i'm typing this post during my office hrs cos i have done my work for the day so i'm rotting in my place waiting for 6 to arrive while it is now onli 2pm..

wat sia..y no customer call n complain like yest? so silent..even sarita is doing sumthing..gosh!

i miss sch...

finally...

2006-08-14T16:41:00.000+08:00

it's over!!! this sem ended today!

finally a sense of relief overwhelmed me. but i also feel sad...cos i feel tt this sem our grp did not do well at all..

there are times when conflicts and conflicts arise due to different personalities in the grp...there are times when there are free-riders in our grp...there are also times when everyone is so tired of the group members...

i feel it tt way, i do pity sar cos she's taking the responsibility of controlling the whole team, n tt's not easy.. i can feel the burden on her too, when everyone in our grp just fall apart, having conflicts n different opinions n stuff..

if i can choose again, i wanna make changes in my group...

sar always tell me tt pair work is the best, more ppl in the group can hindrance the progress of our projects..

i wun say tt some of the grp members suck, but maybe it's time for us to reflect on our personalities towards accomplishing projects together, as a team..

no more bias work, no more late-comers, no more free-riders..

let's learn how to share the burdens together...

it's sad tt everytime when we meet up for projs, we see the same old ppl waiting for the rest to announce their arrival..talk abt time management huh..

it's sad to feel tired of some of our grp members even b4 we start our proj..

sar said tt she felt like she's being 'used' by everyone.. sometimes i feel tt way too..is it because we tend to rely on the ones who are committed in doing proj too much? when can we start learning to take initiative and be more independent?

this is impt in our future career where we cannot make use or rely too much on a person. i wanna start reflecting on my attitude from now on and i truely hope my other grp members start thinking on these issues soon...

have a break... starting work in IBM tml..hope it's gg to be easy...

full house!

2006-08-08T16:57:00.000+08:00

ok i'm slow in catching nice korean drama..

watching full hse just now...damn funni la..

now i know why it is so popular with ppl!

i like the ger...she is so pretty!

seriously, i dun think rain is very handsome...ahha onli think tt he's quite girly leh...

been wondering y my frens n aunties all love rain...

nth special..haha except small small eyes?!?

taste...

2006-07-31T13:44:00.001+08:00

recently, i found out tt i have weird tastebud..

to think abt it..

first, i love to eat my KFC whipped potato with chilli..

second, i enjoy eating mac hot fries with icecream...

i realised tt everyone including yus's n sar's first response when they hear tt is, 'eek...eee!!'

okok...i admit..haha my fav food is all of the above.

hatred!

2006-07-26T01:32:00.000+08:00

i hate petty ppl!!

ppl who rmb grudges...

ppl who seems to be forgiving but yet hateful inside..

argh...disgusting~

Love

2006-07-19T14:57:00.000+08:00

One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life:
that word is love.

New purpose..

2006-07-16T15:11:00.000+08:00

i found this wk message very useful and meaningful..

pastor mark said women are often blinded by the men when they are in a relationship.

men can be deceiving when they are impressing their women...
n guess what?
most women are taken by their sweet talk...silly but it's true..

tt's y pastor mark dun believe in love at first sight cos u muz really c thru the person's character and personality b4 making lifelong committment..

if two persons in a marriage love God, they will be able to solve all probs together, no matter how hard it can be...

cos a marriage is longlasting in the eyes of the Lord..
tt's y we always say,'till death do us part'
tt only death can break the marriage cos the marriage is no longer valid in the eyes of God and the law once a partner pass away...

my pt is, place god in priority and everything will come to light...relationships and all...

one thing for sure, i'm happy to found mine..
thank God for this wonderful present...

:) praise the Lord

wish list

2006-07-11T13:21:00.000+08:00

1) a pair of rollerblades $200+
2) 6 strings guitar $128
3) a tiny mini laptop $2500+

hee, they are expensive!! ahh...

tt's y they are call wish list

proj

2006-07-03T12:22:00.000+08:00

this is the first time i spend straight 8 hrs at pacific coffee..choinging like mad with my dear kuku, sarita!

n finish it in 1 day!

we reach pac coffee w/o knowing what is style guide...n go home with our brains full of style guide shit!

goodness! this is also the first time i feel tt our group morale fell to the lowest!

thank god, we have complete everything, very chaply..

n half of the time, we feel piss over our inability to edit n some of our grp members..hah

i really hope next proj wun be so last-min...to do everything in a day is damn tough! struggle n struggle..lucky i'm not the only one struggling..still got my grp members!

wonder why some ppl can be so blur till they dun know what's gg on in the grp...it shows tt she just dunno how to plan her time n organise her work...dunno how to set priorities... i dun wanna face it le..just dun bother me for these few days..i nid to calm down...

i love the music...

2006-06-27T14:57:00.000+08:00

i love all the music from the taiwan drama er zuo ju zhi wen!!!

so sweet and romantic..arouse my emotions..

i wanna tell him how i love him!

i wan to do all the sweet sweet stuff for him...

i wan to sing this song for him!!!

你身上专属的陌生味道

是我确认你存在的目标

不用来回张望了

知道今世我们相隔着一个街角

这么久了还是可以看到

感觉的到你对我的重要

不会被天黑天亮打扰

你每一次的温柔我都想炫耀

我们绕了这么一圈才遇到

我比谁都更明白你的重要

沉默久了我就决定了

决定了你的手我握了不会放掉

我答应自己不再庸人自扰

因为我要的我自己知道

只要你的肩膀依然让我靠

he brightens my life,

my dear,
i love you...

sch starts...

2006-06-26T13:44:00.000+08:00

sianz does it seem like i just had my hols? nope...

so many proj n work to do...help! feel suffocating le..hah

ppl feel fed up with one another...emotions arise..hai

i wonder wat's it like in the real working world?!?

let's hope for the rest of the sem, we are able to be able to work with one another!!

east coast park

2006-05-29T13:36:00.000+08:00

it was fun hanging out with church frens in east coast park on sat!

we played a game called 'parachute', which was really fun n crazy! there were abt 24 ppl running abt, trying to grab hold of one handle of the parachute in order to 'win'! what a game, soo fun!

nxt we went rollerblading..muz admit tt i have improved in it..gliding n balancing myself..still can rmb the first time when i go blade..it was damn awful, now to think abt it, i act just like a crybaby the first time, keep wanting to hold on to my anata! haha

now i muz say tt i really love blading..hope i can learn cycling the nxt time i go there..

we ate at a dimsums restaurant..wow, eat till my stomach almost explode..so full

the situation at the eating place is a bit awkward though, cos i'm not familiar with anyone except my dear, of cos. kept quiet throughout the lunch..but the food is nice :)

nxt time i go, i muz try to enjoy the waves n the sand, maybe do some sun tanning! hah

this is my first time having this outing with church members n i can say tt it's very meaningful..

i managed to blade with pastor mark, who is brave enough to conquer blading when he's not very good in it..we blade together n chat a little..he's quite a fun pastor to begin with..hah

with tt, i end my post with a smiley :)

hair cut

2006-05-25T11:49:00.000+08:00

yeah i cut my hair on tue...n it's really kinda short in front..

feel the pain of the loss of my long hair though, so i left the behind uncut..

sar says tt it does look like a stingray! hah..

today is presentation day so muz really do my best! feel scared of the q n a session!

anyway, jia you!

announcement

2006-05-23T13:33:00.000+08:00

next time dun bother to ask me abt anything u wanna write in the status report..

i scared tt i will become your scapegoat, like this time..

do it which way u wan n be accountable to your own work!

i dun wanna be involve in all this mess!

proj screw-up!!!

2006-05-23T13:14:00.000+08:00

everything is wrong w our grp members...

if everything muz say like informal or formal meeting rite, who shld go for the informal or formal meeting?!?

when sarita says meeting, everything is formal..no one can say tt she dunno tt it's formal meeting den she can dun come..

what happen is like this:

S: today's meeting n tml meeting is formal meeting.
A: Now den u say it's formal?!?

it means tt if she noes tt it's formal she will come..but well, everybody except the two of them are not there!

HJ doing editing so it's okie..but there's no excuse for the both of them to do editing tml..it's not tt everything we do needs much editing..

anyway, i muz say tt no matter she's there or not, it's not much a difference..

no pt blaming everything on me, this is only trying to mess up relationship w me n the rest..

i do said that she muz be fair by placing anyone who absent as ABSENT in the status report.. i dun think tt it's wrong!

but it's just the way she plan the status report..writing the reason of absent when she's not there n not the reasons why others are not there...

she makes herself look so important in the status report when she is not contributing a lot in the whole proj..

still complaining tt she's given all the least important work to do when she is not responsible when given important work eg the spss tabulation..

wth! i'm damn damn piss!

to hell w all these ppl!!

dinner conference...

2006-05-16T14:13:00.000+08:00

hah, tml gg to money making dinner conference w sar at marina hotel..so excited!!

get to eat dinner n of cos, got free diary to collect..

wonder whether i will get bored! nvm i have my ger to entertain me..

cheers everyone!!!

so duh!!!

2006-05-16T11:06:00.000+08:00

okie..it's 11am in the morning n i am already in sch..

waiting for my dear gd fren sarita to come...

n class only starts at 1.20pm..

y am i so god damn early?!!?

nth to do now..i'm freaking bored..sar is still not here to entertain me!!!

i dunno wat to do la...keep thinking abt cda this coming fri..scary!

just hope ms nga will be more lenient..

i love korean!!

2006-05-11T14:35:00.000+08:00

hmm..i do love korean series!!!

just finish watching 'wo de ming zi jiao jin san shun'..NICE NICE NICE!!! argh!! wanna watch more n more..

wanna buy more!! maybe jiang na ra's series...'wo yao lian ai'..but it is very very ex wor!!!

i think my two hamsters grow fatter le...like two big furry balls when they roll together!! hee

i dun like proj! i am suffocating!!!

guitar also stress stress stress..

lucky i found strength in the Lord...Amen

learning to understand...

2006-05-09T11:35:00.000+08:00

one thing for sure, some ppl just dunno what is the meaning of working together..

some ppl just keep irritating ppl by saying smgt over n over again..

some ppl just dunno how to compromise...

some ppl look so responsible but are shifting responsibility away to the others...

some ppl just enjoy bullying the weak...

if u damn like doing individual work, go ahead..

u do it ur way n we do it our way...

PEACE~~

scary wfm

2006-04-25T13:23:00.000+08:00

each lesson of wfm haunts me everytime..it kinda scary..

'75% of the press release go to where? huh? ADELENE?'

god knows wat is the ans...

she's damn serious la, seem like trying to trap and make mi paiseh w all her qns! who cares abt wfm? i dun intend to go into writing in future..

the only thing tt make me happy is we can use comp!! hee wat a joy!

...............

musicland

2006-04-25T11:15:00.000+08:00

haiz..mr lim just told me tt in order to learn how to create tunes i muz attend the music theory courses which costs $40 per mth! i can't go cos i already have no more $$ after paying for my guitar lesson! too bad i muz postpone the lesson.

i nid to buy a recorder! to record all my tunes...think it will cost ard $40 too! try my best to buy asap!

sch reopen!

2006-04-17T13:44:00.000+08:00

today is the first day of sch!

n it's 8am in the morning...ouch!
up to now, all lessons seem to be draggy and boring! maybe it's the first day ba!

been to easter lunch yest, yummy! muz pay $60 for each person wor. lucky le chin paid for me! hah! gd to have a 'big' sis.

life's been boring so nth to blog abt except tt i have more n more anima le!!! i have not finish some of the korean series though..muz jia you!

anyway, i expect da chang jin to be more n more exciting..yet it bores me more..same mtd everytime..

it's like "Problem arises, chang jin solves it, problem arises, chang jin solves it" n it goes on n on n on!!

n the food shown in the show makes me hungry...argh!

it puts me to sleep, with a hungry stomach!

lack of musical inclination!

2006-04-07T13:56:00.000+08:00

i wanna compose some music tt will depict my feelings n will in fact, help ppl to relieve their stress!

i think tt's y i go learn guitar but it seems tt up to now, i still dunno how to compose the tune from a guitar! wonder how long will i take to do so?!

may ask mr lim nxt wk!

last guitar lesson sucks! i'm stuck at one only 'donna donna' song for two wks! it seems tt i dunno how to coordinate my fingers together with my feet..always end up w a wrong beat! shit, i dun like playing together w mr lim cos he always freak me out! haha stress sia!

jia you!

dinner yum yum!

2006-03-30T15:40:00.005+08:00

i'll be celebrating my grand-uncle's 71th bday tonight in the restaurant...wow, it muz be tough n long to live over 70s wor..so happy for him, still as strong as a bull! haha

bored! tot got work but in the end, everything cancelled..slack at home, watch a lot of korean series..hah 'hao jie chun xiang' n 'shooting star' are very very very super touching n nice...funny too n tt kind of show tt can make you cry! i LOVE It!! hee

bought a short sleeve green jacket yest...same brand as my yellow jacket n it's only for 10 bucks!!! since it's on discount sale, i fought bravely with all the aunties n uncles to *chiong* into the super big crowd at woodlands for the jacket..super kiasu but i bought it le! yeah~~

just saw my timetable! yeah, wed no classes leh! so wonderful but hor when i look at who are teaching me again i nearly fall from my chair..not tt all the teachers are not nice(except one maybe), mr loh is fun, andrew err okey, the rest i shall not comment further le!

duno y got this feeling tt nxt sem will be bz n boring n slacking! hah this is a bad premonition! hope i will be wrong!

haiz..sch gg to reopen soon! oh ya, i wonder where my digital art module course because it's not shown in my timetable yet! *blur*

results

2006-03-27T13:59:00.000+08:00

finally with the help of sarita's com, i got my results!

it's more than wat i expect, well, i'm satisfied! hee!!

can say tt it's the best result so far! wonder if i got chance to enter Uni?

but it's still the money prob! haiz... got hope no $$$!! jia you ba, hope tt nxt sem will be better!!

hols is so so boring..i have already spent all my ang baos money..over $200 ba.. sad leh

no $$ to shop le..

pinning for the next sem! yeah!

work hard~

work!!

2006-03-21T13:10:00.000+08:00

hah no time to slack at home le..

it's time for work tml..sar called me this morning to inform abt the e work..wah it's super far for me leh..tpy wor!! n the work starts at 9am...

tt means, i muz wake at damn damn early!!! OPPS..sooo sad, just borrowed 4 bks from the lib...no time to read le!! haiz..money more impt!!

jia you!!

oh another thing, i got my grade 2 in in guitar course le leh!!! yeah!!! but everything has strings attached..tt means an increase in my fee..from 55 to 60 bucks!! argh!! tt's y muz earn money or esle where got $$ to continue my course? hee

my fren just lent me more more anima wor...i got abt 10 more to watch!! yeah so happy!!!

hols is here!~~

2006-03-07T12:42:00.000+08:00

hols is here...

shld be happy but it seems like a boring n long days to pass..

wat can i do??
haha these few days got the urge to learn knitting orh. think i'm getting old ba..

went to lib n borrow a couple of novels n comics yest, spent my whole day at home burying myself with books n books n more BOOKS!!! i'm gg to be a bkworm soon!! cheers!

next, i muz start my diet plan le..more running n jogging...less chocolates n fattening food! sar, i can do it, no worries! hee

wanna buy tons n tons of jewelleries!! but muz start to earn $$ wor..

write n compose more songs..yeah muz do tt..so far only compose 2, wonder when can i complete the melody of both? argh muz ask mr lim for advice le..

this hols, a boring or meaningful one? ah i shall see~~

signing off...

exam tough!

2006-02-22T14:02:00.000+08:00

sob wanna knock my head against wall n pull out my hair le!!

so many things to study~~~ argh!!! wonder why muz we take exam when i'm gg to forget everything once i leave the exam rm!!!

2 more days to AM!!!

jia you!~

composer!

2006-02-09T09:35:00.000+08:00

i managed to compose my first TUNE!!!

haha i worked like 3 hrs on this song n i manage to complete the whole song..

wenquan n sarita heard it n they say it's nice n great! tt's makes me feel so so so excited n happy!!

now the only task is to wait for tt guy to fill in the lyrics n it's done..

i also need to do my demo..

wonder where to get copyright for this only 1 song! haa muz ask ms peter!!! :)

i'm broke!

2006-02-09T09:33:00.000+08:00

i have spent 70 bucks yest paying my music fees n buy new score bk...

i'm so broke..

but at least i get to try out new songs n new bk!~ i'm so happy when mr lim says it's time to change my bk le! it's the first time wor!! hee

but other than tt, i'm broke! :x

church!

2006-02-09T09:31:00.000+08:00

i wanna find a gd gd church, not tt kind tt always ask u to go but a kind tt makes me feel comfortable...

it's hard..

sometimes i wish i can worship god in a church where no one knows me, den i can really feel tt i'm alone with God..

i'm weird.

haiz..is it always so hard?

chi new year!

2006-01-25T08:24:00.000+08:00

chi new yr is here again! ha but i'm numb to it le! so boring but the collecting money part is interesting though..hah!

exams coming soon...argh..muz study all over again!

i hate my gems! stupid mathematical games n puzzles..BORING LIKE HELL!!!!

love my proj mates...esp sarita n yusrina! wanna work w them more in future!!!! i WANT U GUYS!!!!!

:)

hate free-riders...they just sucks! (no offense but i just want to say wat i feel)
sometimes noe they wanna help but maybe it's just me :X

read amy tan's books...all very nice..it's abt american n chi culture..

try "the joy luck club" n "the kitchen's god wife"...

ppl sux

2006-01-18T11:02:00.000+08:00

been bz w proj these few days...

well, dun deny tt the whole proj is contributed by me, sarita n yus only..

the rest of the are pure useless junks!

one is always there, physically but her mind is on elsewhere..come on! we needs brains, not simply moral support of being there!!!

wat's the use of asking me qns like, "when can we print out the report?", "when can we finish?", "Are we there yet etc??" this shows that the person is not following our work like all, dun even noe wat's gg on in our grp!"

damn damn piss

another one, who is always not there, sick sick SICK!!! tt's all the person gifs..

tell u wat, everyone is sick..

i got MC on mon with asthma n lung infection, yus having diarr..sarita having bad flu... YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY ONE!!!

wonder if we can work in grp of three the nxt time..it doesn't matter to me anymore...

anyway, we are always working as three in grp!!!

to hell w all these ppl!!! i'm very very very angry!!! :X

Mitsuki!!!!!!

2006-01-11T12:36:00.000+08:00

i love the anima Twin Spica!! cute~

drowning in projs!!!! :(

Full Moon wo Sagateshite

2006-01-04T13:03:00.000+08:00

i love animations!!!!!!!! still got 3 more cool anima haven start...just finish on full moon..so touching the show can make u cry the whole time!!! wow..

cheers to korean drama: meng long so cute!!

cheers to full moon: wat a surprise ending!!

cheers to sch rumble: crazy show but yet fun to watch! haha

nxt i will start on another one..forget wat name le..so long~

hee~ happy new yr folks~

stupid e-learning!

2005-12-19T15:53:00.000+08:00

omg, the e-learning page kept hanging..can't even log in wor..wait n try from comp to comp, still no response..argh!!!

tons n tons of e-learning stuff to do tis wk..btw i have no comp at home; tt means gotta do in sch..shit shit shit..hate this kind of online thingy..

argh..wanna do my hw!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

bz bz bz...

2005-12-15T09:41:00.000+08:00

bought a guitar but 'break' it e nxt day...oo hate myself for being so bloody careless...heart aches......

help rene with her tvc yest..think she did a gd job in driecting..clear commands n stuff..think it wld be gd to have rene as my employer..ahah.

yeah i'm fast in picking up guitar strumming cos i'm gg to upgrade to level 1..though not so fast yet but i'm still hoping to get my cert soon!!!

nxt wk will be so bz, w proj n stuff..so let's enjoy this wkend.. winks :P

guitar day!

2005-11-30T12:51:00.000+08:00

guitar lessons are getting tougher~

feel kinda stress attending the lesson each time..

i think it's just me, i'm always getting nervous whenever mr lim asks me to demo.. i am slow too ya cos my fingers just dun listen to me!!! always making stupid mistakes in front of fellow guitar mates..

they are very expert wor, most of them are in grade 3 n above, unlike me... haiz..

but my bday is coming!!! i'm gg to buy myself a gd classical guitar! yeah..i'm so happy~~

lata got guitar again, hope i wun be too scared till my fingers just frost in a damn cold air-conditional class...

argh..wish me luck~

teenage magazine!

2005-11-18T16:01:00.000+08:00

finally completed my article for the teenage magazine..so happy..so relaxed..

this is the first time i got such tight deadline..

got the assignment on wed, finished by today.. hectic work-interviewing ms peter blah blah~ she's a nice person!

hope i'll get selected!!!

way to go~ rmb to buy teenage mag nxt month~

selected~

2005-11-16T11:58:00.000+08:00

been selected to work w 2 of other DMC students to help in a sch magazine~

the teacher-in-charge says she needs all my fw articles..but i only got one soft copy..hell~ think gotta type again..why did i not save?!?

yest yus also got into the finals of mr n ms sp..yeah ger congra! so happy for yer!

found out tt everyone can b e a talent if we tried hard enough..if we have the courage n determine to do certain things..

found my dream: i wanna be a song composer n editor! ermm...maybe tt's y i join cristo music sch! i wan to be in my own world of space, thinking n freedom..i enjoy the feeling of able to soothe myself~

i shall run toward my dream, which is nearer n nearer to me..

wish me luck~

visions~

2005-11-16T11:53:00.000+08:00

been into music these days, tried to compose a few pieces w my basic guitar skills..hah almost done, now only need to add in the lyrics..

got my inspirations in the train n restaurant..

1st, bird flying freely in the sky, biting on to some grass, dancing in the sky..

2nd, a little boy smiles at me in the restaurant shyly..

though tis are simple and normal images, they mean a lot to me. these normal 'encounter' has already build beautiful pics in my mind..how beautiful and innocent life is..

been into classical music too, love the sound of cello n guitar together..hmm~

boring teachers!~

2005-11-09T13:13:00.000+08:00

haiz, how cum i feel tt this sem's teachers are boring?!?!

well, it's true!

helen seems to be quite serious, the law teacher(forgot her name) seems to be a bit confused when she teaches, i dunno wat she's talking at all..hah.. mr chin is truely a finance teacher who talks abt finance(boring) non-stop blah blah blah till i doze off zzzzz...

erm..i only look forward to my tv elective as it is the best super interesting n fun module left for me to rejoice..Mr Low Ai Khoon seems to be very nice n fun..well, i respect him for his experience n the way he teaches..haha..realli look forward to the acting, organising of events, studying the camera settings n stuff in the tv module..after all, tt's wat i'm interested!

well, i'm quite bz in sem w my music lessons in cms..new stuff to learn..very ex too but i loved it!!! :)

hope for the best, to all boring modules n fun ones!!!

dreamy hols..

2005-10-26T13:40:00.000+08:00

i'm here..long time din blog le..

spent the hols screwing n twisting..hah had so much fun n pain w sarita! wondering wat i am saying? haha we did manual work on thermostats! SCREWING N TURNING CAPS! HAHA tt was fun actu but the place is so far from my home..tpy station.

did relief teaching for a couple of days, earned a total of 500 bucks n spent them all in one go..

wat a spender?!?

bought new bags, tons of clothes, new jeans, new slip-on, new tv, new lens..haha almost all are brand-new..

i declared myself broke..

lucky sch is reopening n i can get money le! YEAH..AT LEAST I. AM. NOT. TT. BROKE!!!

spouting nonsense again! argh.

seen wilson n team's film on tv, nice job guys!!! SP is proud of u all..

gtg, so much for dieting, starving myself yesterday..hah lata gg eat seoul garden..eat back all the weight tt i lost..so much for all the enduring n pinning for food! hee~

oops

2005-09-12T13:25:00.000+08:00

haha~ i'm sickening mad..

after exams yus, tania, sari n me maybe booking a hotel to stay in n have fun..haha clubbing at night too..

still wondering which hotel is cheap n not very woolu tt kind u noe? hah..the tot of this cheer me up~

may ask more ppl to join us~~~

here i realli go~ whoosh~

here i come..

2005-09-12T13:23:00.000+08:00

haiz..i'm here in sch again! awwz...

tired, tired plus tired..

someone coming back today..kinda feel weird n strange..

why hold on?
erm..maybe i'm still clinging on some hope n miracle...

ha..i'm sooooo sick of this.........

here i go~

study break is here!

2005-09-09T11:11:00.000+08:00

study break is here and it seems that the break is not a break.

still muz come back to sch to do dma, fw..argh..i hate these....

think i wun be here blogging for some time as i wun have the chance to use the comp..cos after study break it will be the exams den the hols..haiz..

during the hols kel is gg to gif me free guitar lessons..yeah~ maybe i can compose my own songs one day..

another thing is during hols i may get the part-time acting job from xueling! although i am an extra but i think it will be a gd experience n money!

will be jioing some more ppl to join me if they got many vacacies but everything is still not confirm as the hols seems to be quite far away from now...

i hope tt the hols after the exams is very enjoyable.. :)

till den..bye

new samsung phone

2005-09-09T10:28:00.000+08:00

yeah...i finally got my flip phone!!! it's samsung X640C!!!! yes yes yes i'm so so so happy!!!!!!!!

but..

gotta c doc lata..my eyes itch n tear for so long le..argh!

i'm blind~

SONY E RULEZ~~~

2005-09-06T11:08:00.000+08:00

finally dada buying me a new phone..i think it's not a new model but at least, it's new!!! yes yes yes~~

will be meeting him tonight so i can get my new phone from him..hope he rmbs to bring though.. how i wish it's a flip phone but i still dunno wat kind..better dun put up high hopes..

gems sucks esp sypc..dun ever take it!!! it's been hell for me..tml is the test..DIEDIEDIE!!! i'm so so dead..wq has been doing the quizes tt i have not been doing..shawn n i also blur blur..dunno wat's happening..shucks man! after tml, i'm gg to relax n have fun...argh..

spend the entire night doing mmr..tired tired tired..thanks to jer i can bring his laptop home to do the spss...it's been a hassle not able to use comp at home...

erm..jer's laptop seems nice..small, compact and fast..maybe i will buy one after i got enough money~ :)

did i mention tt i bought a new cd? haha it's landy new album, the one with new songs n old ones..her voice damn sexy man...esp when she sing di yu tian shi n lan se yu tt time..wonder when can i be like her? keke..

tis sem got 4 written exams...so shitty..n haven even finish our proj..tt's worse! no time no time no time..think i better start on OM fast~

burpppphhhh!!!!!

rushing~

2005-09-02T10:24:00.000+08:00

flown with the wind~
into the mist..
the drift is getting further,
away from my dream~

haiz haiz haiz..wat rubbish~ anyway i announce again: SYPC sucks~

dunno where to begin or where to end~
it's neither here nor there~
wt do? it's getting late~

argh...

fed up fed up fed up~~
tired tired tired~

luckily i noe someone is always w me~ :)

i do appreciate tt u noe?

haha~

oki..i'm really sprouting rubbish..

conclusion: i'm real bored!

......

2005-08-30T14:44:00.000+08:00

i'm so super bored n tired!!!

aww......

tons n tons of work to do....
sch sucks...

lalallalalalalallaaa.......i nid a break..

eek!

2005-08-30T13:14:00.000+08:00

damn stupi gem module...when i noe nuts abt securing pc..

eeks~

i'm so so dead for the exam nxt wk....all i hope for is passing the gem..

i dun wanna repeat this sucky gem..

it totally sucks~

sick~

2005-08-26T10:05:00.000+08:00

oki, i'm realli sick now...flu....headaches...arghhh

just finish the fw interview w ms jay..tot it will be damn scary but den, find tt she's not tt bitchy after all...haha she answered all my questions beautifully..phew!!!

nice beginning to the day...

lata gg to accompany sarita to buy hamster's things in pet shop...haha..so excited~

dad is gg to fetch me home lata so i dun have to take mrt on my own..yeah!!! my own daddy driver!

being sick can be so torturing yet feeling so nice...

cos everyone will kinda gif in to u..haha..gdgd

i think i will start my weekend tml reading my gems notes..shucks, i noe nuts abt PC stuff..

*ah CheWWW*, sniff sniff...

hope tml will be fine~

tired~

2005-08-24T14:30:00.000+08:00

ok i'm gg to be sick..dunno why..keep sneezing today den got this terrible feeling tt i'm gg to get a fever soon..sian..so bloody tired..can't even keep my eyes open..

well, attend a boring n draggy lect with shawn for gems...there are 2 gers sitting behind us, very noisy n talkative...laugh n laugh till so fucking loud.. i n shawn just can't stand them..it's like two loudspeakers are just over our heads.. shucks!

finish OM today..well, can't wait to do the presentation tml..muz go home memorise some of my parts though..brain-dead..

well, found out tt actu sometimes if u realli go n understand a person, u will find tt she's actu quite nice afterall...hee~

oki gtg..home to eat some medicines n take a nap..very very tired sia.. hope i get no fever tml!

anyway, everyone in class has been doing great for projs..although there are some more to come like mmr n law, i believe tt our class will pull thru it..jia you~~~

now, enough of all the crapping..home sweet home~

nice nice movie~

2005-08-22T08:55:00.000+08:00

watched the new chi movie called 'drink, drank, drunk' featuring yang qian hua n wu yan zu! it's sneak preview oo!! yeah, the show is fantastic, so romantic n funny at times..

story plot at the end can be more touching by making wu yan zu going after qian hua in a more tedious way than just pretending to be drunk..quite silly at the end though..

but den, yan zu is sooo cute when he's drunk n awake..so cute leh..heart melt all the time..haha

basically, i enjoy all yang qian hua's movies..but den all like the same lovey dovey kind..anyway i love it!!!

slack yest..watch movie le den went home to slp...snore snore snore.. argh..

wanna watch more nice nice movies in future tt can make me feel so happy n nice..

it realli makes my day... :)

movie rating: 3.5/5

eyes irriation~

2005-08-19T09:19:00.000+08:00

my eyes getting smaller n smaller -_-

so pain n itchy when i tried to focus on smgt...

i nid eye drops..more n more eye reliever...

oh man~

i'm getting blind..i'm getting blind...i'm getting blind..i'm getting blind...

blind to the world, to all fucking probs, blind physically too~

wth,

i'm blind~

a letdown project superstar~

2005-08-19T09:10:00.000+08:00

unexpected...

haiz junyang n xinhui were out last night! realli not fair lo...i realli think junyang can sing better than weilian..y he out?!? this competition is getting more n more sucky...

kelly din do very well last night..i'm super impressed w xinhui's singing last night..esp her eng song..she realli did improve a lot..wow, impress by her great vocals n improvements..she realli did better than kelly!

so sad to c the results...i din expect the outcome sia..

no pt seein the grand finals le..i think kelly will win..hah~

what a sucky day~

2005-08-17T11:17:00.000+08:00

todae so dead...

everyone rushing dma...

haiz n half of my grp members not here..

lata got stupi gems...

haiz...all i look forward is superstar tonight..

did i mention tt it's junyang's bday todae?

*smile* happy 23th bday guy~~~ *clap clap*

poor attendance

2005-08-16T14:45:00.000+08:00

shit~ got a SAS notification tt my attendance for SYPC is below 75%...muz not skip le or else cannot take exam..

shucks~

got piss off by someone just now..

argh~

superstar

2005-08-12T10:37:00.000+08:00

watched the results of superstar last nite..derick n silver were out...

i expect silver to be out but wat abt derick??!?! haiz it's not fair..he's so cute n has mature manly voice, how can he be out? i hate to see the results of the male catergory cos all 3 guys are my fav...

Junyang, the most potential to become the superstar winner, has a clean and strong vocals..love his smile a lot..a bit blur blur though..

Weilian, the handicapped young man, oh man i love his voice..like me, got sing song with his nose..haha quite admire his courage to join the competition..

last of all, the fav of my favs, derick...saw him before in cine..so cute n small-sized but with a manly voice tt will let young gers' heart melt..oh my god..he got potential, like a little jay chou cos he also mumble his words thru the song..got style!

sad to say, i cried when derick sang the song "hen xiang ni"..wow..guess i love his voice when he sings tt song..heart realli goes out to him.. so sad leh..think nxt week is gg to be more sad cos all finalists are my fav..haiz..

guess i'm gg to miss him...

hell to the world~

2005-08-10T12:53:00.000+08:00

can't stop scolding ppl these few days..

it seems tt nth is right..yet nth is wrong..

it's even hard to hack care..

fuck those ppl who think they are greater than others...
those who just dump their grp members...those who dun even dare to tell their grp members tt they dun wan them..(hint: someone who is so high n mighty in our class, who think tt it's dog eat dog world outside..erms seems familiar)...

fuck u..the ppl u dump will definately do better than u...

bad thing...fucker inhumane ppl

2005-08-10T11:54:00.000+08:00

i hope he's fine now..

he sounds so sad on the phone just now... poor thing..

haiz why muz such things happen? i noe life n death are part of life but why muz it hurt so many ppl ard them... not onli the ill person suffer, the ones who love n care for the person also suffer..

i really really hope his gm will recover soon though he said it's rather bad.

although i dunno wat's gg on in his family, i think tt his family is too much..he is not the onli one responsible for his gm, why din the rest of his family members care? i muz be feeling very bad if i'm his gm..

i'm getting work up..i hate those ungrateful ppl who just dump their parents to someone n it's like non of their business anymore.. so unfilial..

fuck those bloody old hell ppl...

oki to think abt it, i miss dad..
i used to blame mum..yet deep in my heart, i love her...

well, it's strange how u can hate a person so much, yet love her deeply...
oh pls god, let his ordeal be over soon! let his gm recover... thank you..

hope to hear gd news by tonight...

gd weekend yet strange dreams!

2005-08-08T10:33:00.000+08:00

WHOOSH! fri nite went to sentosa for a family outing with cousins...nice one though..but a bit boring for mi as auntie may n the rest kept chitchatting the entire nite while mi, ben n stephan played card games...

after tt, sat nite is also well spent, went down to marina to see kelvin but din get to meet him though..maybe he is occupied w his army stuff cos national day coming..in the end i, ling n samuel walked all the way to the river (forgot wat name le)..

spent the entire sun do housework at home, starve myself to death in order to stay onto my diet plan...fun being at home, mama went ben's place so i'm alone! yeah.. watch tv whole day, run onto my running machine for 2 hrs straight! think i muz learn adele way of dieting!!! it's hard but she's my role model! hee~ maybe i shall learn yoga nxt...

having bad n strange dreams these few days..

dream 1:

i was in a quiet place when someone use cigarette butt to abuse my arms, legs, everywhere..i tried to scream but suddenly found tt i actu enjoy it..wah think i'm psycho le!

dream 2:

found myself in a strange castle with 5 to 8 friends(can't rmb)..i can't rmb the process but i rmb the ending.. all of friends died after trying to find ways out of tt stupid castle...i noe i'm terrified n kept running through doors n doors..strange enough there was a black cat who was with me thruout ..finally i was found by a psycho man who pulled me into some kind of rm..i dunno wat to do when i saw the black cat smiled n i woke up!~~ (wow..crazy dream sia)

dream 3:

i was haunted by a woman in red...even in my rm where she always stand by the curtain..she did no harm to me though but found her quite familiar..

eerie rite? wah..dunno where i suddenly got these scary dreams...

but exciting to rmb them after i woke up..but i forgot those impt parts..can onli rmb bits n pieces..